I don't know they they will ever saw this but
I really cared about you all.
Not just like coworkers
like family.
For someone like me, who never had a stable home,
being around you felt warm
like I finally belonged somewhere.
it mattered to me a lot a lot
That night I messed up.
I yelled.
And I remember she were standing in the back, watching the whole time
I still think about that moment.
I wish I had the courage to just tell you the truth.
But I was scared to be that vulnerable.
The truth is
I wasn’t trying to hurt anyone.
I just wanted to be heard.
I just wanted to feel like I mattered too.
I bought the pizza not because it’s anything big,
but because that’s how I show care.
And when it felt like no one saw me
it hit deeper than it should have.
I know I might’ve hurt you.
That was never my intention.
I would never try to break something
that finally felt like home to me.
I just didn’t know how to hold it…
without losing myself in it.
I cared too much—
and didn’t know how to handle it the right way.