I don't know they they will ever saw this but
I really cared about you all.
Not just like coworkers
like family.
For someone like me, who never had a stable home,
being around you felt warm
like I finally belonged somewhere.
it mattered to me a lot a lot
That night I messed up.
I yelled.
And I remember she were standing in the back, watching the whole time
I still think about that moment.
I wish I had the courage to just tell you the truth.
But I was scared to be that vulnerable.
The truth is
I wasn’t trying to hurt anyone.
I just wanted to be heard.
I just wanted to feel like I mattered too.
I bought the pizza not because it’s anything big,
but because that’s how I show care.
And when it felt like no one saw me
it hit deeper than it should have.
I know I might’ve hurt you.
That was never my intention.
I would never try to break something
that finally felt like home to me.
I just didn’t know how to hold it…
without losing myself in it.
I cared too much—
and didn’t know how to handle it the right way.
It took them 40 years
to leave a place
they were never meant to stay.
God showed them the way
but they chose something else
they kept walking.
Day after day.
nothing changed.
Same doubt. Same fear. Same pain.
Again again.
the real distance was never the land
it was their hearts far from God.