Lord I’m hurt.

Why do I have to carry this alone?

Why every time I try to love,
I end up hurting them…
and pushing them away?

Why do I keep repeating this?
Why does it feel like I’m trapped
inside the same pain?

Lord… where are You?

You said You are the Shepherd.
So why do I feel lost?

You said You protect.
So why do I feel exposed…
like I’m fighting everything by myself?

You gave Joshua a promise.
You showed up for him.

but what about me?

How long do I have to walk like this?
How long do I have to bleed quietly
and still wake up
to the same emptiness?

I cry…
and no one sees it.

I break…
and no one comes.

And the next day—
nothing changes.

Lord… I’m tired.

Tired of being strong alone.
Tired of pretending I’m okay.
Tired of not knowing
if You’re even listening.

If You’re here…
why does it feel so silent?

If You see me…
why does it feel like I’m invisible?

I don’t need perfect answers.

I just need to know—

I’m not abandoned.

Because right now…

it just hurts.